thoughts and feelings

Saturday, December 17, 2016 (7:57 a.m.)

Blessed God,

Thank You! It's taken almost two hours for me to decide that yes I DO actually want to be grateful. I allowed my thoughts and feelings to run amok much of the night. The chattering inside my head bounced from topic to concern. Landing often at frustration. And occasionally, fear.

No matter the inner chastising I did on myself, it wasn't until I searched “thoughts and feelings” that I truly relaxed.

(9:39 a.m.)

Holy God,

I truly can be my own worse enemy. No one else seems to think of me as negatively as I think of myself. Thank You that You love me in spite of myself.

Thank You that much is said of negative thoughts and feelings. Thank You that I am not alone in the patterns they actually make in our brains. And thank You especially that there are proven ways out of the loop that so very often ingrains me.

Holy, holy God and Father, thank You that praising You is the antidote for everything that tries to poison our soul. I confess to trying to smile, sing, read and pray my way out of the downward spiral my thoughts and feelings were taking me.

Never once did I pause to breathe You in deeply, connect with my surroundings and truly praise You for Who and all You are. Father, thank You! Thank You for reminders. Thank You for hope. Thank You for love. Thank You for joy!

Psalm 42:11(a) poses the question with which I admonished myself repeatedly, “Why am I discouraged? Why so sad?” It's the end of this verse I was missing. “I will put my hope in God! I will praise Him again – my Savior and my God!”

YES! Hope in You. Praise You again.

Do all You must Father in helping me get in good practice of this powerful Truth. I love You. I long to serve You. And I ask (Matthew 7:7) You to provide exactly all that is needed to make this happen.

I am Yours. And I love You. Thank You. Amen.

(354 words ~ 10:12 a.m.)