O Happy Day!

Monday, June 26, 2017 (7:09 a.m.)

Thank You Father,

Thank You for memories. Thank You for joy. Thank You for sadness. Thank You for pain.

Thank You that as I was trying to think of anything to say to You, ♫O Happy Day!♫ started singing to me.

(7:44 a.m.)

O Happy Day! Indeed! As far as I know there is not a song that rings out, “O Grumpy Night”. No. We sing, ♫O Happy Day!♫

Mm. Holy God, my mind is darting from one thought to another in rapid succession. Here I ask You to still my heart. My mind.

(8:37 a.m.)

The phone keeps ringing. There are interruptions. Changed plans. Circumstances I didn't expect. And here I confess, I'm not handling it well.

You know that I like easy. Breezy. Hiccups cause my thoughts to scatter. Praising seems to fly right out the window. Making room for fear. And dread.

I spent much of last night rethinking past mistakes and my own mishandling of situations. Along those lines, I threw in regrets and remorse.

My heart yearns to belt out O Happy Day! as though I really mean. Instead, it's much more of a muffled, this is what I'm supposed to say, this I how I'm supposed to feel rendition. Forgive me Father.

I know You are good. And rather than pretend to be experiencing a great deal of joy that I am just not feeling, I will quote back to You the words from which this hymn stems.

Isaiah 25:9, “In that day the people will proclaim, 'This is our God. We trusted in Him, and He saved us. This is the LORD, in whom we trusted. Let us rejoice in the salvation He brings!'”

O Happy Day!