ridiculous grace

 Friday, February 21, 2025 (5:36 a.m.)

Blessed God,

You blessed me again yesterday. Time spent with loving neighbors. Celebrating the ninety-second birthday of their patriarch. What a joyful opportunity. Thank You God.

Thank You too for an extended visit from our hospice chaplain turned dear friend. Thank You especially for her grace in not mentioning the jumbled mess I had created in the corner of our living room.

Thank You for her kindness. Encouragement. Love. And laughter.

Father, I’m feeling a bit off at the moment. There is much to do in the next few days. Thus far I’ve refused to actually write it all down.

I work better with lists. I’m asking (Matthew 7:7) You to work in, with, by, through and for me today.

I confess to allowing myself to procrastinate. Continuing to push things off just one more day.

Reckless Love

Zephaniah 3:17 

(7:42 a.m.)

Here’s the smile I was missing. AND the song I was leaning towards! ♪Known♪

(7:54 a.m.)

And now? Truth and a confession.

I am feeling overwhelmed by avoidance. There it is. I want so much to avoid feeling loss and hurt and fear that I’m avoiding most constructive next steps.

With this being freely admitted, I’m again turning to You for help. Do all You must to get me out of Your way that You may truly have Your Way in, with, by, through and for me.

I’ve put so much off for so long, a sense of doom hangs over me. This is NOT from You! In Jesus’ pure and blessed name I call on Him to right my thinking!

♪Father let Your Kingdom come 

Father let Your will be done

On earth as in heaven

Right here in my heart♪

(Matt Maher)

Yes! Personalizing Katy Nicole’s song for healing I sing to You:

♪I speak the name of Jesus over me

In my hurting, in my sorrow

I will ask my God to move

I speak the name ‘cause it’s all that I can do

In desperation, I’ll seek Heaven

And I pray this for me♪

Father, I DO pray for my own healing! That circumstances will change.

♪I pray that the fear inside would flee In Jesus Name

I pray that a breakthrough would happen today

I pray miracles over my life in Jesus name, in Jesus name

♪I speak the name of all authority

Declaring blessings, every promise

He is faithful to keep

I speak the name no grave could ever hold

He is greater, He is stronger

He’s the God of Possible♪ 

Yes! You are the God of possible! As in, “I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength” (Philippians 4:13).

(8:49 a.m.)

I’ve spent literal hours reading other people’s opinions and understandings of my first two songs this morning. The more I read the more downcast my heart became. Father, I want to follow YOU! Not other people’s directing.

I want desperately to be corrected and disciplined (Revelation 3:19a) by the One who stands at the door and knocks (20a). To hear Your voice, open the door, welcome You in and “share a meal together as friends” (20b).

Empower and enable me to “be diligent and turn from my indifference” (v. 19b). It is absolutely in You that I “live and move and have my being” (Acts 17:28).

Do all You must Dearest God that I will come away singing of Your Truth. Your power. Your ♪Reckless Love♪ and ♪...ridiculous grace♪

I love You. I need You.

♪I pray that the fear inside will flee in Jesus name

I pray that a breakthrough

Would happen today

I pray miracles over our lives in Jesus name

I pray for revival

For restoration of faith

I pray that the dead will come alive

In Jesus name♪

Yes! In Jesus name! Amen!

(646 words ~ 9:07 a.m.)