my all in all

Thursday, February 23, 2017 (6:28 a.m.)

Holy God,

You are good. You are loving. You are kind. You are... ♫my all in all.♫ Mm, yes. Teach me what this means.

The hymn note refers me to Colossians 3:11. My head nods. Mind stirs. Soul struggles. I find myself unwilling. I read the hymn. Believe the Truth of which it speaks. Yet I refuse to get my hopes up again.

Holy Father God, I confess to feeling disappointed with myself. I make plans I don't keep. Consider projects I don't even begin, much less finish. We spoke together yesterday about procrastinating. This seems much deeper than that.

Oh Jesus, thank You! Thank You for reminding me just now that I had awaken filled with hope. Two words [glitter and glimmer] had presented me with much joy. Hallelujah! How I thank and praise You!

You truly never cease to amaze me! As long as I sit bemoaning myself and my perceived lacking, I sink deeper into my thoughts of negativity. Turning back to Your Word with just a glimmer [one of the earlier two words] of hopefulness and I want to break out into song.

Jesus, praise You! Thank You. Lead me here I pray.

The Voice concordance has referred me to Isaiah 59:9. “People: That's why we can't make things right; good and true can't gain any ground on us. We look earnestly for a bright spot, but there isn't even a glimmer of hope; it's darkness all around.” How very often I feel exactly like this!

Oh, but turning to this verse in The Life Recovery Bible I find a Twelve Step Devotional on the very same page. “Clearing the Mess BIBLE READING: Isaiah 57:12-19”. A question jumps off the page reminding me once again that You truly ARE my all in all!

“Will God really come into the mess and lead us out?”

Oh my dearest Lord, I have been trying desperately to effect my own transition here. The harder I attempt to push myself the more exhausted I become. This mess didn't occur overnight. It absolutely won't be gone tomorrow. I need help. YOUR help.

Will You please come into this mess and lead us out?! How I thank You for another glimmer of Your grace!

Thank You that Your Word is alive and active (Hebrews 4:12). Thank You that it provides us Your Truth on which to truly build and hope. I ask You to come into this mess I have made for myself and lead me out.

I look to You. Asking, seeking, knocking (Matthew 7:7). Trusting that ♫You are my strength when I am weak, You are the treasure that I seek; You are my all in all♫

Jesus, I love You. I trust You. And I ask You to do ALL for me today that I truly cannot do for myself. Thank You for the glimmer and the glitter that is Yours alone. Let me use the hope that I have found in our time together here for Your good and for Your glory. Thank You. I love You. Amen.

(517 words ~ 8:33 a.m.)