hurts and hearts

Wednesday, October 30, 2024 (4:16 a.m.)

Dearest Jesus,

I experienced unexpected sadness yesterday. The hurts and hearts of others. Physical as well as emotional. I had one anticipation for the day. You had quite the other plan.

Thank You for the songs and smiles You provide that continue pointing me back to You. Your Word. Your Truth. Your promises.

♪I speak the name of Jesus over you In your hurting, in your sorrow I will ask my God to move I speak the name ‘cause it’s all that I can do In desperation, I’ll seek Heaven And pray this for you I pray for your healing That circumstances would change I pray that the fear inside would flee In Jesus Name♪

♪In the Eye of the Storm You remain in control And in the middle of the war You guard my soul You alone are the anchor When my sails are torn (Hebrews 6:19a) Your love surrounds me In the eye of the storm♪

♪Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your path♪ (Proverbs 3:5-6).

(6:44 a.m.)

Let me try again. Completely different setting. Outside, backyard swing. And a whole lot more honesty.

Father God, I experienced completely unexpected waves of sadness yesterday. Varying in size. Somewhat small ones interspersed with the ones that ultimately led to my desire to completely isolate myself.

Thank You that I believe You want me to bring my own hurting heart before You. Laying it wide open before You.

Father, it’s hard watching others hurt. With little to no hope. Thank You that Your Word tells us to ♪Seek ye first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness And all these things shall be added unto You Hallelujah, Hallelujah!♪

Thank You for again singing Your Truth (Matthew 6:33) into my soul. Thank You that while it seems so much easier for me to withdraw and want to be alone, You keep putting desire into my heart.

Desire to know and to serve You better. Yes! Withdrawing doesn’t have to be a negative thing. Jesus Himself withdrew to solitary, quiet places.

The difference here? He went to be alone with You! He knew time spent with You was where true peace and power is found.

Thank You Father for reminding me of the importance of being honest, open and willing to let You have full control of my heart, soul, mind and strength.

Use me as You know is best. Surprising me with whatever emotions are necessary that Your will is done.

I love You. I need You. I trust You. And I want You. Oh yes! How very much I want You as Lord of my life.

Do in, with, by, through and for me all that You must. I want to sing, smile, stand firmly in and stay my mind on You and the Truth of Your wonderful, marvelous Word.

Use me as You alone know is best. Thank You. Praise You. Amen.

(453 words ~ 7:17 a.m.)