TRUST over clarity

 Monday, November 18, 2024 (4:35 a.m.)

Blessed God,

I just did it again. Made an assumption. Expected one thing. Got another. Teach me please Dear Lord.

I listened to a long admired pastor last night. Didn’t like what he had to say. Wouldn’t agree. Pulled back. Am turning to You in confusion.

I want to know You Father. YOUR Truth. Not something someone scares or shames me into believing.

This is new territory for me Lord. I am seeking clarity from You. Not others. I want to know what You would have me think. Say. Do.

I confess to having felt offended by this particular pastor’s carefully chosen words. Deeply upset by His understanding and preaching of Your will and Your way.

Speak to me Lord I pray.

(5:27 a.m.)

And You do. Through Your Word. Your Truth. Your promises. And the writings of other people. Thank You Father.

One person cited Abraham’s experiences with You. And his examples of trusting You. One step at a time. Thank You God.

As I continue searching about wanting clarity with You I keep finding words like faith. Trust. Knowing You. Your character. And promises.

The story of the prodigal son’s return into his father’s loving embrace (Luke 15:20) shows me again the power of trust over clarity. We don’t know what will happen next. We do however trust You to redeem all our decisions (Romans 8:28).

I love You Father. I want to serve and represent You well. Do all You must in changing me into the woman You would have me be. Loving. Joyful. Peaceful. Patient. Kind. Good. Faithful. Gentle. And self-controlled [able to marshal and direct my energies wisely - The Message] (Galatians 5:22-23a).

Yes Father! Make me strong and courageous (Joshua 1:9). I want to love You, others and myself with all of my heart, soul, mind and strength as Jesus taught (Mark 12:30-31).

Use me as You know is best. Thank You. Praise You. Amen.

(330 words ~ 6:03 a.m.)