imperfection

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Buffalo Bill’s Resort and Casino (#132a)

Primm, NV

Blessed, Loving Lord God,

I am here before You this morning confessing my imperfection. I have trouble setting and maintaining healthy boundaries. I don’t take the time to clearly identify my desires and expectations. I let a lot of irritants slide because I don’t know how to deal with them appropriately. All this leads to my feeling alone, afraid and far too often taken advantage of ~ “overworked and underappreciated” to quote a phrase from the past!

So Lord, in a sincere effort to change my old pattern of negative behavior I am coming right straight to You. At first I thought I was approaching You rather cowardly, but with the Truth of Your Word on my side I see a boldness I didn’t expect! ♫If God be for us Who can be against us…♫

On my own I FEEL cowardly Lord. I want to withdraw and hide from grown up responsibilities. I’d much rather ignore than confront hoping that problems will right themselves of their own accord. Pulling the blankets up over my head and pretending I’m not afraid doesn’t help.

So, where do I go from here Lord? How do I confront problems in the spirit of Your love?

I fear being taken advantage of. I believe that can only happen if I allow it. I know Your power and Your strength. I know I can trust in You and be delivered of all fear and doubt. Teach me Lord. Take me deeper into Your Word. Comfort, guide and correct us as needed. I don’t want to be afraid of nouns [people, places and things J]. I want to fear You! Fully Esteeming And Revering You in all my imperfection (1Corinthians 13:10) as You continue working Your perfection in and through me.

I can do NONE of this on my own Dearest Lord. I need You every single step of the way to give me the courage and strength promised by Paul to Timothy in his second letter to him. It is Your Spirit ~ Your gift that doesn’t want me to be afraid of people but to be wise and strong and to love them and enjoy being with them (2Timothy 1:7). And it is this inner power [read here by me as BOLDNESS] when stirred up will let me never be afraid to tell others about You (v.8).

Work in me Dearest Lord. Work through me, developing the character traits You know I need to stop being afraid of ministering to others. I love You so very much Dearest Lord and I need You even more. Thank You. I love You. Amen.

(447 words ~ 9:36 a.m.)