Friday, October 16, 2015
(7:37 a.m.)
Holy, Blessed God,
I love You. Thank You for
rest. And safety.
(8:51 a.m.)
And options. And choices.
And, and, and …
Holy God, my mind is
currently all over the place. Not on You. Nor the blessings. Not even
on overwhelming doubts and fears.
Ah, that's what this is ~
apathy! Forgive me Father. You provide our every need. And I don't
even have what it takes to offer You a wholehearted “Thank You”.
And even here You give me
another “Aha” moment.
Blessed God, THANK YOU!
Thank You that You do not want me to come before You in pretense. All
this time I have been attempting to present You with a grateful
heart. But in reality, what You want from me is truth. Honesty.
Passion.
And for the last 24 hours
the truth I have been avoiding showing You is fear. And awkwardness.
Sadness. Really, truly, profound sadness.
Holy God, THANK YOU that I
get to be this honest with You. And why? Because I was reading in
Your Word. And about Your Word.
Psalm 39. King David was
honest with You. The Life Recovery Bible
comments for this psalm pointed me to the apathy I have been using to
mask my own disappointment with myself.
Ah,
there it is. I continue to think that because You have given me so
very much in my life that You must be as completely disappointed with
the way I use Your blessings as I am. I berate myself for not doing
and thinking and being all that I think would be most pleasing to
You.
Get
me out of Your way I pray most Blessed God! It IS in You I trust. Not
me. Not circumstances. Not my opinion of myself. You. YOU!
And
I am here asking You to provide me the ability to use Your blessings
to Your good and to Your glory. Do all You must to change my heart,
my soul, my mind (Mark 12:30) to loving You as You desire.
I
DO love You, Father! Use me as only You knows is best. Thank You for
loving me exactly as I am. Enable me to do the same. Thank You,
Father. Thank You, Son. Thank You, Holy Spirit. Amen.
(381
words ~ 9:41 a.m.)
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