Thursday, October 8, 2015
(5:33 a.m.)
Blessed, Holy God,
Help. Please. Change is
coming. Quickly. Full force. And I don't know which way to turn in
it. Serenity? Courage? Wisdom? All three? At once?
At once. At the same time. I
get to look to You. To Your Word. And want desperately to fear not.
To not be afraid. But just for now, this very moment, I am confessing
fear to You. Fear of change. Pain. Inaction. Indecision.
And in that fear I am asking
(Matthew 7:7) Your guidance. Your leadership. Your wisdom. Yes,
Father, Your wisdom as it is described repeatedly through Your Word.
(7:08 a.m.)
Thank You Father that You
are so incredibly good to us!
Thank You for setting the
sky on fire with oranges and purples and colors we rarely see in
regards to our sunrises. Thank You for beauty. And hope. And courage.
And the decision to look at circumstances differently.
Thank You Father that I get
to cry out to You with actual tears and sobs and anguish and fear.
Knowing that You alone are God and good and have Your very best to
offer each of us.
I'm telling You right now, I
don't always want what You give us when You give it to us. Often
times it takes me much longer than others to come around. Thank You
that right now I am making the decision to ask You to help me want
what we have. Wholeheartedly.
There's pain. And different.
And mess. And confusion. And brand new territory. And fear. SO much
fear, coupled with so very many tears. AND there's Y-O-U!
Wonderful, powerful You!
Father,
thank You that You do NOT leave us alone in our struggle. Thank You
that there is indeed GROWTH in the struggle.
Thank
You that You give us choices. Deuteronomy 30:19 spells it out so very
clearly.
“Today I have given you the choice between life and death,
between blessings and curses. I call on heaven and earth to witness
the choice you make. Oh, that you would choose life, that you and
your descendants might live!”
Yes!
Today... Choose life.
Thank
You Father that I can fear. Yes. Be very afraid of people, places and
things. OR I can fully
esteem and
revere YOU!
I
can choose to try to eat or sleep or busy away my fearful thoughts
and feelings. OR I can ♫Turn
my eyes upon Jesus, Look full in His wonderful face, And the things
of earth will grow strangely dim In the light of His glory and
grace.♫
Matthew
14:29-31; Hebrews12:1-2; 2 Corinthians 4:16-18.
Yes.
Just for today, I can choose to hope and have faith that You really,
truly DO know exactly what You are doing. AND that You are going to
give us the courage and the strength and the wisdom to carry it out.
Provide
every single ounce of courage and power I need to be able to live
this day with faith, hope and love (1 Corinthians 13:13). I love You
Father. I need You Jesus. I want You Holy Spirit. Empower and
embolden me for Your good and Your glory. Just for today!
Thank
You. I love You. Amen.
(535
words ~ 7:40 a.m.)
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