receiver/conduit

Monday, May 9, 2011 (9:42 a.m.)

Awesome God,

I have officially forgotten all the things I was planning to come here and discuss with You. As I was waking up I remember thinking, “Oh yes. And that too.”

Lord. You are so good. You have so much to give to us. Make me a better receiver of all that You have to offer.

Tuesday, May 10, 2011 (6:57 a.m.)

And then I changed my mind. I knew as soon as I was expressing it that I don’t just want to receive from You. Lord I want to be a much better ‘sharer’. I want Your gifts, Your blessings, to just flow through me. I want You to make me a better channel. A conduit, Lord. Make me a better conduit!

Your Word provides truth, hope, love. These things come into my heart. I meditate on them. I get excited about them. Lord God, how I ask that You would continue Your work in me that I would freely share them with others.

Lord, I confess to You the tendency I have of holding on. Holding back. I hate to admit that I am fairly fond of thinking of things as ‘mine’ even when I know they are Yours. I keep trying to change that habit. Again Lord, I ask You to do for me that which I haven’t been able to do for myself.

I’ve known since yesterday that I once again want to learn more deeply what Your love truly is and especially all that it is not. 1 Corinthians 13:4-8a is most often my go to Scripture for this. To have it so clearly spelled out that ‘love is patient and kind; does not envy or boast; is not arrogant or rude; does not insist on its own way; is not irritable or resentful; does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things; never ends’ is another truth I want tattooed to my heart Dearest Lord.

I want to be able to stand firmly on the Truth and hope that is found in Your love. When I become aware of the things that cause me to feel fear, guilt or shame it is my heart’s desire that I would come to automatically counter them with Your faith, hope and love.

Lord God, You are so good. So kind. So patient. Just as I began thinking of Your innumerable attributes, ‘slow to anger’ came to mind. In searching for a verse to match ‘and abounding in love’ led me to Psalm 145. Oh most dear and holy God, how I ask You to empower me to LIVE the truth of this chapter!

Praising You and blessing Your name ‘each day and forever…’ Lord, You love each and everyone of us so very much. Let each of us become free flowing conduits of Your love, mercy, grace, faith and hope. Oh You are so good and You deserve ever-so-much more than I offer You. Thank You for loving me in spite of myself. I love You so very much Dearest Lord. Teach me to do it better. Thank You. Amen.

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