Monday, April 18, 2016
(6:27 a.m.)
Most Holy and Blessed God,
Thank You! Yes. Holy God,
thank You!
Thank You that I get to
grump and shut myself off and think all kinds of fearful, hurtful
thoughts and You still love me. Thank You that You alone are great
and greatly to be praised (Psalm 96:4 KJV).
Oh, yes Blessed God, thank
You. Thank You that I get to come before You exactly as I am and You
accept me. Help me. Teach. Guide. Change me.
I look to You most Holy God.
A Theology in Brief in
Illustrated Bible
Handbook
titled Faith and
Feelings
tells us “Human frailty guarantees we will each be subject to the
whole range of pleasant and unpleasant emotions.”
It goes on to explain how “the psalms provide a unique perspective
on our emotions.” Here is where I usually close myself off and
attempt avoiding You, while what I really want is to bring You a new song that
blesses Your holy name (96:1-2).
Thank You Holy Father that this study of Your nature teaches “While
feelings have subjective reality, they are not the ultimate reality!
Our feelings can and do change. Through relationship with God we can
move from fear to trust, from alienation to comfort, from envy and
jealousy to joy.”
Thank You that as I continue reading here I am again reminded, “God,
who fully loves and accepts us, also accepts our feelings. We are
free to share them with Him in prayer and express them without
hesitation or fear.”
This is exactly where I am right now Oh God. Hesitating and fearful.
I have loved ones who are hurting. Physically. Emotionally. And I
keep calling on You to help them. Only to see more pain. That's when
my tears return and I begin avoiding You. Again.
Such a cycle! I hate watching what I perceive as the struggle of
others. I'm telling You very straight out, that's why I keep doubting
the effectiveness of my prayers on their behalf. The pain and
struggles continue no matter how much we pray.
Thank You that my heart starts to thaw as I continue reading, “we
are never to judge the strength or validity of our faith by our
feelings. Instead we are to let God shape our feelings as we relate
to Him.”
Okay. Please. Shape my feelings Blessed God. Get me out of You way.
“We cannot completely change our own feelings simply by willing
them to be different.” How hard have I been trying to do that!
“But as we focus on who God is, and the meaning of our relationship
with Him, God will graciously work in our emotional life as well as
in our understanding, and shape us to His image.” Yes, please!
That is exactly why I am again here saying to You that I need You
Father. I need You to teach me how to trust and follow You.
The
Message tells us to “Shout
the news of His victory from sea to sea. Take the news of His glory
to the lost, News of His wonders to one and all! For God is great and
worth a thousand Hallelujahs” (Psalm 96:2-4a). I want to Father. I
truly do want to. And then I take my focus off of You. All You are
and all You do. And I again look at the problems and the pain.
The
Life Recovery Bible footnote
for 96:1-9
tells us, “The way we live demonstrates what we believe about God.”
Staying in our prison of sin shows “that we are either unaware of
God's power to save us or indifferent about Him and the help He
offers.”
I
do NOT want to be indifferent about You and all You offer. You are
absolutely worth a thousand hallelujahs. Do the work in me that You
must to make it me ready, willing and able to again sing Your
praises!
“The
world is filled with 'remedies' for our problems. Many of them are
helpful, but none can offer us the power we need for real change.
Only God is mighty enough to offer that kind of help” (TLRB
comment). Power for real change. Yes, please. Do all You must.
I
love You. I long to serve You. I confess to you the fear and sadness
I am experiencing and ask (Matthew 7:7) You to “give beauty for ashes,
joy instead of mourning, praise instead of despair” (Isaiah 61:3a).
You
alone are great and greatly to be praised. You truly are worth a
thousand hallelujahs. Let my focus return to You. I love You. Thank
You. Amen.
(771
words ~ 8:29 a.m.)
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