Monday,
January 28, 2013 (8:58 a.m.)
Most
Amazing and Incredible Father God,
Thank You that I know I need to come to You with this! We have some
HUGE decisions and discernments we need to make today. You know what
You would have us do at this stage of the game. You know the
decisions You would have us make.
Mistakes were made. And oh my goodness, is the Scripture passage (2
Samuel 14:15-17) I've turned to containing these two words ever
dredging up unexpected thoughts and feelings! The further I read
(back to chapter 13) the deeper the roots of denial on my part are
going.
This is not at all what I was expecting! But right here in the midst
of it I am thanking You. Father, You do not cease in the ways You
will bring Your Truth into our lives.
One minute I am asking You to help us in our discerning and decision
making process and the next You are uncovering even longer ignored
problems. Relational problems. NOT the structural ones I was bringing
to You.
Father, how I ask You to work in us this day. Use our present state
to unearth and repair relationships You would have restored.
Comments in The Life Recovery Bible
mention Honesty.
We are in desperate need of that! “When the injustices experienced
in the past case us pain, we often seek to bury them in the deep
recesses of our mind. Being dishonest with ourselves in this way,
however almost always allows pain from the past to translate into
mistakes and suffering in the future.” AMEN!
Reading
further, I am reminded just how good and faithful You are! I came to
You asking that You would help us discern and decide a plumbing
problem. In so doing, I recognize my need to confess and repent a
relational one.
Father
God, I have withheld complete forgiveness of another. Seeds of
bitterness and resentment lie deep beneath the surface. Here I
further confess that I am powerless over the emotions involved in
this particular unresolved problem of the past.
While
I have come to believe that YOU, the Power greater than myself can
restore me to sanity, I struggle to make the decision [would You just
look at that!] to turn my will and my life over to Your care. Father
I know You to be good. I also know You to be trustworthy. This should
absolutely be a no brainer!
I
confess fear to You. Fear that I won't measure up. I'll fall short of
Your expectations of me. As I continue reading in a Recovery Profile
of AMNON
& TAMAR
and insights
from them as well, I am even more aware of You speaking to directly
to my heart and my soul.
“When
we are living in denial, ignoring a festering problem in our life,
God often uses other people [like David's dysfunction family] to
confront us with the real issues. I thought I was coming here asking
for help with water damage!
“Forgiveness
and the restoration of relationships are two primary concerns in
recovery. David's disregard for these principles brought painful
consequences upon both his family and his kingdom.” Father, work in
and through me to YOUR end! I love You so very much. And I DO long to
honor and serve You well.
Thank
You for loving and forgiving me. Empower me to likewise with others.
I love You. Amen.
(576
words ~ 11:33 a.m.)
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