good and loving

Monday, August 13, 2018 (6:04 a.m.)

Blessed, Holy God,

I pouted yesterday. Pure and simple. Things weren’t to my liking and I just gave up. Withdrew. Mumbled. Grumbled. Groused.

Oh. Now here’s the kicker. Looking up the meanings to those words, I found the one on which I worked at helping someone overcome that very morning. Complaining.

Forgive me Father. Once again I fell right back into my old habits.

(6:35 a.m.)

Thank You Blessed God. I sit here reading Your Word. Nodding my head. Knowing You to be good and loving.

There was very little of me that appeared good and loving last night. Nope. I stuck to my guns. Closed off. Protected and fed my “right” to feel out of sorts.

Again I say, “Forgive me Father.” I didn’t come to You first. Or second. I did not reverence nor esteem Your holiness. Forgive me Father.

(7:16 a.m.)

(7:32 a.m.)

I keep reading. Learning. And thanking You.

Yes, Father. Thank You. I continue coming back to Deuteronomy. And smiling. There is so much hope to be found when we look to You.

Thank You Father. As I read descriptions of this power packed book of history, again I smile with hopefulness. “Deuteronomy is a handbook for rebuilders” (The Life Recovery Bible).

And this from Distinctives of Deuteronomy in Illustrated Bible Handbook, “Here we see a strong emphasis on personal relationship, as Israel is urged to love God, to hear Him when He speaks, and to keep or do His words.”

I did NOT do these things last night. Thank You that today is a brand new day and You are always good and loving.

Work in, with, by, through and for me that I would truly esteem and revere Your holiness this day. You deserve so very much more than the surliness with which I ignored You yesterday.

Thank You for Your good and loving ways. Ways that lead me to Your Word. Your Truth. And the hope we have in You. 

Use me Father. Exactly as You know is best. Thank You God. I love You. Amen.

(360 words ~ 8:01 a.m.)