Thursday, December 8, 2016
(5:31 a.m.)
Holy God,
Thank You. I keep making
mistakes. There are SO many things I don't know. Can't understand.
Haven't figured out. The seemingly simplest things get the better of
me. Repeatedly!
Again I turn to Your Word
and am once more immediately brought to tears. Thank You Father. Thank You for the
opportunity of reading Your Truth
and promises.
I definitely have a problem being kind to myself.
Second guessing, self-doubt and relentless inner criticism come easy.
(7:01 a.m.)
Blessed Holy God,
Thank You that even though
negative attributes quite often seem to rule my thinking, YOU are
Truth! Thank You that in the very midst of reading Faith and
Reason in Illustrated
Bible Handbook
regarding Job's struggles, my soul again started singing...
♫All
my hope is in You♫
Wanting
to continue reading instead of singing, I tried ignoring the
prompting. Ever so subtly, there it was again... ♫My
hope is in You, Lord In You, it's in You♫
Thank
You Father. Thank You that You will not be ignored!
Here
(hear?) again the word “relentless”. Persistent, continuing,
constant, never-ending, tenacious, single-minded...
And
I give in. To You! Looking up the song I find that it's ♫My
Life is in You, Lord♫ Yes! My life... My strength... My hope... it's in You!
I
have tears and tissues all over the place right now. My eyes are
blurred. Nose is running. Heart is breaking.
I miss my mom and the
delight she brought into all of our lives! I constantly fight the
turmoil in my head of “What's the point?” and “It's not worth
it.”
Father,
YOU are the point! YOU are worth it all!
Forgive
my shortsightedness. Thank You for taking my emotional weariness and
reminding me again of just exactly what we are here for. YOU!
Thank
You for an e-article entitled God's
Relentless Pursuit of Us in Love by Jim Feiker.
Thank You that its opening Scripture reference is one that I know
well, but given here in The
Message
did not immediately recognize.
“Your
beauty and love chase after me every day of my life”
(Psalm 23:6a). Chase after me. Like I often do with misbehaving
children. Bringing
me full circle to the mistakes I keep making.
Thank You Father that
You are permanent. You last. You provide. And I get to keep
practicing trusting You and Your promises.
Father,
I am asking You right now to fill me with Your Spirit that I would
truly live this day as You would have me live it. Joyfully. Lovingly.
Hopefully. Through the strength of Your mighty power (Ephesians 6:10).
I
love You, Dad. Discipline me exactly as You know is best. I am Your child.
Train me up in the way I should go (Proverbs 22:6). Teach me to
choose the right path that I would not depart from it.
I love You. I
want to serve You. Exactly as You wish to be served. Do a miracle in
me this day Blessed God. Let me live and use wisely and well all the
blessings You have provided. I love You. Thank You. Amen.
(526
words ~ 8:09 a.m.)
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