Saturday, December 5, 2015
(3:06 p.m.)
Honest.
I'm going to practice being
honest right now. Hard honest. Real honest. Help me get my head
around what I want to say to You right now.
Blessed God,
Yes. You are blessed and You
are God. Thank You. Thank You that those two are still true. Thank
You that as I continue I will find even more that is still true. You
are good. Faithful. Loving. Kind.
And there is horrible,
ridiculous violence in the world. Thank You Father that the insanity
of it all has to hurt You WAY worse than it does any of the rest of
us.
I wasn't going to come here
with You today. I thought about it earlier and I passed. Just now I
thought of it again and also considered passing once more. Thank You
that I didn't.
Thank You that I knew I
needed to come say something to You. Even if it was wrong. Which
causes me to wonder... is anything we say to You actually wrong? Are we
truly free to say things like, “Hey God? What's going on here?”
Is it okay that what I truly
wanted to say is, “HEY! A little mad here!” Immediately I found
myself wondering if I wasn't really sad instead.
YOU know our hearts. Our
souls, minds and strength. You know each of us far better than we
will ever know ourselves or one another.
“Senseless tragedy”
comes to mind. All the strife. Hostility. 'Bitter disagreement over
fundamental issues.' I don't understand any of it Father. It all
hurts.
Just being able to be
completely honest and say, “Dad, I'm sad.” Not mad. Sad. Help us
Father. Show us all what to do with our helplessness.
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