Tuesday, November 17, 2015
(6:33 a.m.)
Most Blessed Father God,
Thank You! Praise You. Bless
You. Keep You.
I've been absent lately.
Physically, as well as emotionally. Thank You that You not only know
my heart, but also, my mind. You've watched me struggle with
disappointment. Disillusionment. Sadness. And the pure and simple
fact that I miss my mom! And dad.
But it's been so much longer
since he's been gone from us. And he didn't do too much of the
cooking. Yes. The holidays are coming up and I'm wanting again to run
away and try to hide from them. I could make an endless list of all
the things I miss.
Things I'm not willing to
put the time or energy into trying to recreate. But the overwhelming
sadness that continues attempting to steal my joy keeps my mind fully
aware of wanting to do only that which will create lasting value.
This is where You come in.
Again. Always. As You ought. YOU ought to be that for which we are
most thankful. You are Who we are to love and celebrate with all of
our hearts, souls, minds and strength (Mark 12:30).
Blessed Father, You've kept
me company again these past many nights. Beginning last Thursday
while alone in the house deciding to nurse a grudge or not. THANK YOU
that You showed me Your much better way. Forgiveness.
Mm. Yes. Father. It is Your
loving forgiveness that even allows us into Your presence. Feeling
guilty for choosing not to come before You all these days was enough
to keep me away even longer.
Early this morning, it was while considering the
grief I've been attempting to run away from that I coined the acronym
“G-od r-eally i-s e-xtremely
f-aithful”. Thank You Father that You are.
On the tails of that came
one for guilty. “G-od u-ltimately i-s
l-ovingly t-rue”. Thank You again.
It is all the gr~ words that
brought me back here to You. Yesterday I realized I was growling.
Grumbling. And occasionally grinning. It was the grins that truly
made me grateful.
I could feel them. I even
took five minutes to write out my feelings yesterday and wanting to
smile was one of the things that came out. Actually, “wanting to
want” came up more than once.
Thank You Blessed Father.
Thank You that in this world of tribulation [distress, suffering,
trials, frustration, affliction, troubles, oppression, disease] we
get to take heart [be: brave, courageous, confident, certain,
encouraged, undaunted, filled with joy, of good cheer / comfort,
unshakable, assured] because Your Precious Son has overcome [power
over, triumphed over] the world (John 16:33).
Most Holy God, I confess to
the far too many times I lose my focus. It so easily shifts from Your
promises and Truth to the devastation and fear I see in the world.
Thank You that You are bigger. Better. All the things we need You to
be.
Forgive my selfishness
Blessed God. Keep working Your blessed hope in me. Let me not lose
sight of all that matters to You. Help it matter to me.
I love You Dearest Lord.
Work in me this day that I would glorify and represent You well. I
want to want all You have for me.
Change my focus. Put it back on
Jesus, where it so rightfully belongs. I love You. I want You. Help
me serve You as You wish. Thank You. I love You. Amen.
(574 words ~ 8:18 a.m.)
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