Wednesday, July 29, 2015
(6:34 a.m.)
Blessed Father,
Thank You. I feel tired. And
emotional. There was sleep. Rest. Yet here I sit. Seemingly only half
awake. Talk with me, will You.
Yesterday we took a day trip
to the beach. With two preschoolers in tow. Fun was had. Much prep
work in advance paid off handsomely. Yet I feel shell shocked.
Ah... a smile. Real.
Genuine. Authentic. Thank You Father.
An alternative for the
phrase shell shocked is
combat fatigue.
Believe it or not, that very nearly represents my current run with
exhaustion. Vacation plans were well executed. Several
consecutive days of overnight childcare went well. Big news of
upcoming changes are being welcomed and discussed.
Oh, but my heart, my heart
is feeling set aside. For protection. Last night I read Oliver
Jeffers' book The Heart and The Bottle
and I cried. Much as I am now. Tears that want to fall. Yet stay
pooled until just the right moment. Like this.
Father,
thank You for giving us such a wide range of emotions. Must I feel
them all at one time?
(8:05 a.m.)
Blessed Father, I ask You to
guide me in Your Word right now. I don't know where to look. How to
find all that You have for me. I want very much to not attempt
putting my heart in a bottle for safe keeping. Teach me again how to
risk feeling.
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