Monday, October 20, 2014
(8:09 a.m.)
(3:20 p.m.)
Shall I call it avoidance?
For three whole days I could
have easily come here before now. Easily. But I didn't. Or is it
really, wouldn't. And I don't even know why.
I was going to take “just
a minute” to look at a brand new novel. All those hours and over
300 pages later, I turned to TV. Where was the time I was going to
spend with You?
To say I got side-tracked is
such an understatement. Forgive me Blessed Father. Forgive the
self-centered thoughts and actions that have taken me so far away
from where I really truly want to be.
Mm, and this is where I can
be honest. Open. Willing. With You. Again. The moment I tell You that
my heart is breaking for the sadness of others.
That's it! I've been
avoiding You because I didn't want to pretend. Yet I wasn't ready to
be honest either. Father, I am powerless over the pain of the world.
The sadness. Aloneness. Illness. And when I allow myself to call upon
You, the tears begin again.
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