Sunday, January 12, 2014 (7:22 a.m.)
Laughlin, NV
Most Holy Father God,
I love You. I've been gone. From
here. From You. From myself. Just 'gone'. I can't explain it. Don't
even know if I'd want to try.
Will You talk with me? Order my
thoughts? Put into action the things You want done by me. I've been
calling myself lazy when maybe that isn't quite accurate. Is it
undisciplined? No. I don't think that's it. Unmotivated? No. Unsure.
Uncertain. Undecided. Hmmm.
There are things I've learned this
past year. Important things. Things that matter. And the seemingly
most important of them all is that people matter w-a-y more than
things! I've spent a good amount of time watching lately. Sitting.
Observing. Watching. Waiting. And through it all, looking to You to
guide and lead my next step.
Blessed Father God, we are officially
in over our heads when it comes to planned projects around the house
and the ever offputting unexpected!
Father, thank You. One minute I
believe myself to be one of the biggest screwups around, and the very
next I am being comforted and encouraged by Paul's words to Titus.
I'm sitting here with one of the
silliest grins I can remember having. My heart is growing more
excited with every word I read. There's hope. Affirmation. The
reminder that You know me. Not only that You know me... You LOVE me!
Exactly as I am. Warts and all! Wow! Father God, I need You so much.
“Foolish and disobedient... misled
by others... slaves to many evil pleasures and desires... full of
resentment and envy... hated others and they hated us” (Titus 3:3).
I resemble these statements! But for Your grace. Your “kindness and
love” (3:4), “kindness and pity” (3:5), and “great kindness”
(3:7).
The Life Recovery Bible
tells me “We are justified by God's grace; that is, we are declared
'good in God's eyes' by virtue of belonging to Christ.” Far too
often I forget this vital Truth!
It is because
of Your great love and His selfless sacrifice that we are taken off
“the performance treadmill, relieving us of the need to measure up”
to Your standards. Because of Who You are and all You have done on
our behalves we no longer have to try to measure up to some
unrealistic ideals set for us by parents, teachers, bosses, even
ourselves. The fearful guilt and anger we often carry by not being
able to do and be all we think we are supposed to is assuaged by
knowing You accept us. Just as we are.
You don't
expect us to be perfect. You know we can't do any of this alone. You
call us to holy living. Providing Your power and direction. THAT is
exactly what I am seeking this morning Blessed Father. Your power and
direction!
I honestly
don't know the first thing that needs to be done, but I absolutely
trust You to guide and direct me in it. Thank You Father. Thank You
so incredibly much. I love You. Use me to serve You well this day.
Thank You. I love You. Amen.
(526
words ~ 8:55 a.m.)
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