Saturday,
May 26, 2012 (10:25 a.m.)
Loving Father,
Thank You.
Yesterday I asked for courage. This morning I saw a billboard with just one
l-a-r-g-e word, “BRAVE”.
Looking up the
trailer and teasers for this yet to be released Pixar film, a question is asked
by the protagonist. “If you had the chance to change your fate, would you?”
There’s a lot
going on inside me these days. Questions. Doubts. Fears. So I’m coming directly
to YOU, asking what about myself You would have me work to change?
One small, tiny little
change I made almost without noticing it. I was preparing to go and do
something I really didn’t want to and instead I said, “No. You go. I’ll stay
here.” Something as simple as that reminded me of my silent prayer to You much
earlier this morning when I asked You to help me say, “No.”
Far too often I
say yes when I think it’s what the other person wants to hear. I think it’s
been quite awhile since I have examined my heart of hearts to see what is
really going on inside me.
There’s a lot of
disappointment. Things have not turned out as I had once expected. I remember
hearing a pastor teach us fairly recently that the two biggest joy stealers
are: unresolved guilt and unrealistic expectations. I long to live in the joy
You have designed for us. If I had the chance to change my fate, would I? Only
to the degree and direction that You lead!
I long to be
joyful Dearest Father. Joy, as a byproduct of Your love. How do I begin? By
being honest. At all cost. Speaking TRUTH in love. Saying, “No” when it is what
needs to be said.
Work in me in this
area Most Blessed One. You know my needs. You provide my every single one.
Teach me the fine art of using a well timed, firm and loving, “No.” I love You
so very much Most Holy, Loving God. Thank You for all You are and all You offer
each and every one of us.
Grow me up in You
I pray. Thank You. I love You. Amen.
(362 words ~ 11:24 a.m.)
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