Monday, August 29, 2016
(7:39 a.m.)
Blessed Jesus,
I love You. Thank You that
that is true. I'm gonna admit, I keep waiting for the miracle. The
day I bound out of bed so full of hope and joy. Still isn't
happening.
Each day is much the same as
the last. Thinking thoughts of despair. Singing songs of hope and
joy. Smiling because I do believe what I read and sing.
And here's the deep breath.
The reading of Your Truth. The hope. A sense of joy. Romans 15. Your
Word promises. I hope. Then doubt. Hope some more. And then feel as
though I'm swirling. Sinking. Trying. Treading.
ARGH! Jesus. There is a profound
cynicism that follows every smile and deep breath I take. I started
out the day by singing, ♫I'm
no longer a slave to fear I am a child of God♫
As I continued singing the Truth of the surrounding lines, I actually
heard myself counter with, “Yeah. Right. When?”
Is there something inherently wrong with
me that instead of building each new day on the Truths learned the
day before I insist on arguing. Complaining. Balling my fists and
stamping my feet at You?
You have to know how badly I want to
live as Your promises say I will. In the very short readings I've
done this morning I can no longer find where I read about “waiting
patiently for God”. My patient waiting continues being challenged.
Rather than continue searching that
statement, I'm asking You to instead fill me with a deeper
understanding of verse 13 in Romans chapter 15.
The Voice
says, “I pray that God, the source of all hope, will infuse your
lives with an abundance of joy and peace in the midst of your faith
so that your hope will overflow through the power of the Holy
Spirit.”
And
The Message, “Oh!
May the God of green hope fill you up with joy, fill you up with
peace, so that your believing lives, filled with the life-giving
energy of the Holy Spirit, will brim with hope!”
Yes.
Please. Thank You. I love You. Amen.
(355
words ~ 8:30 a.m.)
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